I've tried. I've called people. I've e-mailed, I've left messages, I've sent messages through my brother, and still I haven't really seen anyone. It used to be I was on the phone with someone every night and I hung out with someone at LEAST twice a week, and I didn't want to go to dance so that I could hang out with my friends. Now I don't hang out, I've have called my friends a total of like six times, and I love dance because there is ONE girl there who I am KIND OF friends with. That's it. I write in my journal, I think about my UNI friends alot, I IMAGINE seeing my other friends, but I never do. It's like I am the one person left in my circle of friends, and I'm trying to build a new one from HOMESCHOOL with people I can't even TALK to.
I'm trying to get a party going, but I don't know who will come if anyone will and the people I know will come, I'm not sure if I'm even ALLOWED to invite them. So yeah, I'm alive, I'm getting back into life, Things are going better, but it still sucks.
Maddi
I am sorry you feel so lonely. I have tried to be a good friend but I know I don't cut it. I try to have your friends come, but there is only so much I can do. Remember to reach out to some of the people in our ward. They really do like you and just need some encouragement. I love you!
ReplyDeleteBoy that's a rough one - how do you be a friend when you never see anyone or can't talk to anyone... and your old friends are probably afraid to reach out just cause they don't know what to say and how to act... I know us old people just don't cut it and that is understandabe
ReplyDeleteYou and your mom need to pick out a worthwhile project you can work on that will get you interacting with other kids - like collecting coats for the needy or something like that - anything that will get you 'working' with other people and that is how new friendships build.
We love you still - hang in there - it will get better!
It still isn't your friends but you are always welcome to come visit us down here.
ReplyDeleteIt will get better.